It’s
been almost a year since I last posted on here. But a sweet friend of mine
challenged me to get back on the horse, and so here I am writing.
Truth
is I’ve written a ton of things within the past year. The problem is that those
words never escaped my head. It just seems that the thoughts hit me when I’m
not directly in front of a computer screen. They come to me when I’m driving
down a twisting road or searching the aisles at the grocery store for whatever
is next on my list. Needless to say, I don’t just whip out my laptop and pop a
squat in the middle of Wal-Mart in order to jot down my current feelings or
thoughts. Hence no post in ten months.
Recently, however, I redecorated my bedroom.
When
I moved in two years ago I chose the colors dark purple and beige. I felt it
was more of a “grown up” color scheme in comparison to the bright, neon colors
I’d had during my college years. For a while it was soothing. It was warm and
comforting. It felt like home.
Fast-forward
two years and those same colors were no longer warm, but dark. The soothing
feeling had become the feeling of loneliness. The colors I had chosen had
turned on me, playing a role in the sick skit that is my depression.
So for
the past two weeks, I’ve been walking into a bright, joyfully colored room. And
I must say… it’s nice. Coral and teal are plastered throughout the walls,
chevron patterns and vibrant owls are strategically placed, offering a revitalizing
space.
What
I’ve realized (now that I’ve come to love the light) is that my bedroom for the
past two years has perfectly reflected sin. Warm and comfy at first; Makes you
feel “grown up”, making your own decisions, decorating the walls of your life
however you want. Until one day you wake up and realize that the once
comforting tone in your life is now the thing that haunts you most, dark and
gloomy with no source of light.
It’s overwhelming. But it’s not permanent.
It’s
changeable! You weren’t fashioned to be the interior decorator of your
life. You were designed to be molded, decorated and celebrated by the One who
created the colors of the rainbow, the One who made you simply to be loved. That’s
what you were made for. Not darkness. Not sadness. Not loneliness disguised as
a dim bedroom.
So open
the curtains of your heart! Let the light in. Become a lover of His presence
and watch the format of your life transform. It’s never too late for change. But
even so, why wait any longer? Redecorate.
With love,
Brittany Jade
