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I’m back!

And as promised, I’ve knocked a few things off of the list and I’m here to share them with you! (If you haven't yet, take a look at my last post.)

Anyone who knows me can tell you that movies are one of my all-time favorite things. Seriously. I own way more than I should and they always make me feel better. 

Like music, there’s a movie to match my every emotion. 

So when I wandered to the Dublin flee market and found a rack with $1 movies, I was ecstatic. I’ll be honest and say that I could have bought the entire rack and been the happiest. BUT I practiced self-control and better budgeting skills and only allowed myself to spend $5. That said, I have marked off number 3!

3. Buy your favorite movies, thrift stores have steals on the classics!

Moving on down the list, I found myself in a very unusual mood one day. I didn’t want to go to town but I didn’t want to stay home either. 

I felt the walls were closing in around me, to-do lists coming from every angle of my life, screaming too loud for me to think. 

Suddenly I felt the need to breathe. To truly breathe. I stepped onto my front porch and a new peace fell upon me. I ended up spending the rest of the day on my porch. Reading. Eating mixed nuts. Listening. Looking. And it was one of the best things I’ve done in a while. Simply put, I conquered number 7. :)

7. Sit outside for 10 minutes, reflect and enjoy the creation God has 

placed you in.

Last, but not least, is "I Surrender" by Hillsong. Often times, I put my phone on iHeart Radio or Pandora so that I don’t have to focus on picking songs when getting ready in the morning. Sometimes, if the playlist is super awesome, I continue the streaming in the car on the way to work. And if I’m REALY lucky, a song comes on that completely stops 

me in my tracks. On a dark Tuesday morning, that’s exactly what happened. 

Without warning, I shattered. 

Emotions and hidden feelings surfaced quicker than I could pull my car over. The lyrics of this song and the way in which they related to me were terrifying, like someone had secretly broken in to the depths of my heart and stole everything I’d been hiding. 

Then the fear of it all subsided and a longing came over me. As hard as it is to explain, it was like the Lord was looking me in the face singing my own heartsong back to me. And because I realize that my words cannot possibly express the moment, I have pulled the song lyrics with the prayer that they’ll speak to you as well.

“Here I am down on my knees again. Surrendering all. Find me here, Lord as You draw me near.
I'm Desperate for You.

I surrender.
Drench my soul as mercy and grace unfold. I hunger and thirst.
With arms stretched wide, I know You hear my cry. Speak to me now.
I surrender. I wanna know You more.

Like a rushing wind, Jesus breathe within. Lord have Your way in me.”

I’ll leave you with this song and urge that you listen to it.With that, I mark off number 8 on the list. 

8. Find that one worship song that speaks volumes to you and BLAST IT LOUD, sing it, dance around and get enveloped in the moment, praising God!

With love and joy,

Brittany

Every. Single. One.

I read an article this morning--was totally God redirecting my thought process--that really lifted a dense darkness off my shoulders. Feeling all "I'm so single, poor me" I typed into the Pinterest search bar "single" and took a stroll through pins. Within the first 10 pins I saw an blog post entitled 41 Embraceable Moments for the Christian Single Girl. Being a woman who tries pretty hard to seek the Lord in all things, my heart jumped out with hope. 

I clicked. 
I read. 

In a moment when I was going to apply self hate and insecurity to the layers of my heart, God immediately offered me another option. Now, I'll admit when I clicked on it I expected 41 things that basically restated one simple sentence. "Seek the Lord." 

As a single woman, I think I speak for many of us when I say that we KNOW to seek the Lord. We DO seek the Lord. 

So of course as I begin to read this post, I'm not putting much faith into it. But it, thankfully, took me by surprise! A real list of 41 things! 41 options on how to spend our time and things to try and explore. 

Being single for 3 years now, I've been getting very anxious about this "season" and this was exactly what I needed. I'm so thankful for this blog post that I've decided to try all 41! 

Yep, every single one. 
Get it? 
SINGLE one? 
Haha, I'm so punny. :)

So, this is me making a promise to try all 41 of these, starting with coffee dates, sitting outside and cooking for friends! With that, I plan to post about all 41 of these experiences. So look for the pictures and posts! And practice embracing your singleness with me! 

And don't forget to enjoy the post for yourself too! It's so worth the read!
http://tirzahmag.com/2015/04/20/41-embraceable-moments-christian-single-girl/

With Love, Britt

Changes...

        It’s been almost a year since I last posted on here. But a sweet friend of mine challenged me to get back on the horse, and so here I am writing. 

        Truth is I’ve written a ton of things within the past year. The problem is that those words never escaped my head. It just seems that the thoughts hit me when I’m not directly in front of a computer screen. They come to me when I’m driving down a twisting road or searching the aisles at the grocery store for whatever is next on my list. Needless to say, I don’t just whip out my laptop and pop a squat in the middle of Wal-Mart in order to jot down my current feelings or thoughts. Hence no post in ten months. 

Recently, however, I redecorated my bedroom.

        When I moved in two years ago I chose the colors dark purple and beige. I felt it was more of a “grown up” color scheme in comparison to the bright, neon colors I’d had during my college years. For a while it was soothing. It was warm and comforting. It felt like home. 

        Fast-forward two years and those same colors were no longer warm, but dark. The soothing feeling had become the feeling of loneliness. The colors I had chosen had turned on me, playing a role in the sick skit that is my depression.

So for the past two weeks, I’ve been walking into a bright, joyfully colored room. And I must say… it’s nice. Coral and teal are plastered throughout the walls, chevron patterns and vibrant owls are strategically placed, offering a revitalizing space. 

        What I’ve realized (now that I’ve come to love the light) is that my bedroom for the past two years has perfectly reflected sin. Warm and comfy at first; Makes you feel “grown up”, making your own decisions, decorating the walls of your life however you want. Until one day you wake up and realize that the once comforting tone in your life is now the thing that haunts you most, dark and gloomy with no source of light. 

It’s overwhelming. But it’s not permanent.

        It’s changeable! You weren’t fashioned to be the interior decorator of your life. You were designed to be molded, decorated and celebrated by the One who created the colors of the rainbow, the One who made you simply to be loved. That’s what you were made for. Not darkness. Not sadness. Not loneliness disguised as a dim bedroom.  

        So open the curtains of your heart! Let the light in. Become a lover of His presence and watch the format of your life transform. It’s never too late for change. But even so, why wait any longer? Redecorate. 

With love,

Brittany Jade